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I blame copywriting. After being a
copywriter for a decade, I have become pretty good at a quick turnaround on my
words. I figured writing a book would be like writing 1000 words multiplied by
80. Easy peasey.
But oh, ho, ho, how wrong I was. I have read
that it is unseemly to complain about how hard writing a book is. But IT WAS
REALLY HARD. There. I’ve done it. You are free to call me unseemly, or a
whinger, or an unseemly whinger. Whatevs.
Since I am now already labelled, let me
wallow a bit more. For a start, having never written a book before, I didn’t
expect it to be so complicated. It might seem apparent to everyone else in the
universe, but it wasn’t until I started this process that I realised a book is
not just a Frankenstein collection of disparate thousand word sections – at
least not the kind of book I wanted to write – it is a living, breathing beast
that has to work as a whole. Before I found scrivener, I nearly drove myself
RED RUM crazy trying to devise ways of keep up with the flow of the story. (If
you are struggling with this, scrivener http://www.literatureandlatte.com/scrivener.php
is seriously awesome. And no, I am not paid to say that).
But still, scrivener wasn’t everything I
needed to hold the book together. I had to understand how a book worked before
I could feel like I actually knew how to write one. I read obsessively on scene
and structure, plot, character development, style and voice. I listened to
hundreds of hours of podcasts on writing techniques as well as author
interviews. Though I also read fiction, I couldn’t switch off. While
occasionally getting pulled into the world of a book, more often than not I
analysed the writing, took apart the structure and tracked the character arc.
(Did I mention I trained as a biochemist and am prone to obsessive, scientific
analysis when I feel out of my depth?)
So, why am I telling you this and how does
it help you to get over your hump? On reflection, I think my panic at not
knowing what the hell I was doing was actually a good thing for keeping my
inspiration going and helping me avoid writers block.
Writing a book requires a step-up of energy
that can be hard to muster, especially if you are also working a day job and/
or looking after kids. To make this new energy, you have to feed your creative
fire.
I am not suggesting everyone go to crazy
town in exactly the same way I
did, but if you are sitting in front of an empty screen feeling defeated, it is
easy to let the voices creep in, the ones that tell you you aren’t any good.
Those voices drain your energy and make your creative self want to curl up in a
ball. It is hard to keep your fingers on the keyboard when you are hunched over
in foetal position.
Even if you don’t let those voices win, and
remain diligently locked in a battle with the empty page, there is no guarantee
the muse is going to turn up. Sometimes, when you feel stuck, or low on
motivation, filling your head with techniques and ideas from people who have
walked the path ahead of you can be a great way to keep your juices flowing and
the ideas coming.
It might not work for everyone, but if you
are feeling down in the dumps about your draft, why not try hunting for
inspiration? Pick up a book on writing, read a publisher’s blog, find a new
podcast, get lost in a book by an author you love. The worst thing that could
happen is you learn something; the best might be that you finish your book.
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